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[27 May 2005|12:14pm]

Screw that last entry where i said you needed to comment...

here is my sn  abeautifultrio

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[27 May 2005|12:14am]
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[26 May 2005|11:57pm]
Well I got a new journal,and well if you want in leave a message here, and ill add you.
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Lets just start from point A and go to 58 [26 May 2005|12:07am]
[ mood | silky ]

Well lets just do what I do best,some good old ranting complanied by bad spelling and grammer. Go me.

As a good portion of you know,I well "dolled up" today.It was for no reason,Josh and I just thought it be an odd thing to do.So we did it. In the process for getting ready,I got a long scratch on my arm from a safety pin in my bookbag. I got alot of compliments,it was nice.Made me feel noticed and not like a fly on the wall of life.

Award Assembly:
It was just so much fun,I wanted to blow my brains out my ____.It was just so blah. Not much more to say.

I hate seeing him suffer.Knowing I have power to change it.

Lets see I caught you again. You betray me,I go on.You betray me,I go on. I wont go on again. I wont have someone backstab me,thats one of the worst possible things.I'm sick of it.

Theres so much more but im tired and need to go over lines like a million times

mucho love to my eeps

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read me...blah...blah...blah...im ....blah [24 May 2005|11:14pm]
[ mood | fuck ]

I dont see why anyone likes me really,and it sucks.I dont see this beauty people see.I've been hurt.I've been abused.I've been alot of places,and dealed with a lot of stuff.
I broke a mirror the other day cause i was staring at it,and staring and just seeing this ugly thing looking back.I was searching for this beauty people speak of.I just cant find it.No matter what people say,its just nothing.

Some person the other day called me ugly.This person is so not important to me,and their opions mean nothing. But ya know what it brang back memories.And it sucks.

I dont want to breath right now.

This whole crap with my theatre exam is all on my shoulders.Its all up to me,whether we do this show. Im having so much trouble with these lines,its not even funny.I cant get into character at all.Damn I hate me,and as i set her and complain guess what I could be studying my lines.THing is I could list everything thats bothering me and why i cant conentrate and all my little distractions,but according to V and everyone else its still my fault.

Also I cant deal with betrayl.I look at you and I see it.I just cant deal with it.It hurts more than you will ever know.

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rocky horror hottness [18 May 2005|03:49pm]
I cant memorize the doctor lines,its really hard and boring.I can not get into at all. Everyone is frggin doing great,and i dont know my lines.I suck butt. Idk I am letting everyone down,cause i cant memorize a couple lines.I suck.

I'm really hating life right low,like alot.

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[12 May 2005|04:46pm]
so yeah when i was fuckin talking about the thing with sex i was joking...i was fuckin joking tiffany.im glad u think i was serious..

im not straying from my religon either,im having a rough patch but that doesnt mean im giving up

Tiffany u were not ment to be single,your just in highschool,you have the rest of your life.just cause a certain someone doesnt like u know,doesnt mean you wont find someone.

chris u know u can call me,i do have a phone.so call me.

also if i say dont tell anyone,i fuckin mean dont tell anyone..or wait does that mean tell someone else..uh no it fuckin doesnt but apperantly to you it does.
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[11 May 2005|05:37pm]
Bri my phone number is 343-4079
call me!

i would call u but lack of your phone number and all kinds prevents me from doing that. I miss you at school,and I cant wait till you get back.

i am going to church soon...blah
still no lines learned but fuck it...fuck the one performance....
fuck V

yeah so i walked to preston park with josh...that was um fun...
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[08 May 2005|10:47pm]
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well f [06 May 2005|02:57pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

fook relationships

and fuck 16 year old boys

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[04 May 2005|11:55pm]

What is the first name of the person you will marry?

Created by 2hot4u813 and taken 2524 times on bzoink!

You will marryChristopher
you will live inLas Vegas
you will have this many kids8
you will have this much money67573470

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who are you in love with????

Created by bLuEyEdDeMoN and taken 1034 times on bzoink!

What is your name??
How old are you??
do you think you will fall in love with yor crush?
r u krazee??
what do you want to be when you are older??
this is your nameTrue
you will have this many kids with your crush8
you will fall in love with your crush on...October 08, 2024
this is how krazee you are
you will me what you said you wanted to be!!True

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[04 May 2005|11:48pm]

Long Survey About Yourself

Created by bleedwithoutreason and taken 27097 times on bzoink!

What time are you starting this?11:36
Date of birth?12-31-86
Sex?not until im married
Height?5 something
Eye color?green
Where were you born?kentucky
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?one
Hair color?black
Town you live in?crap
Favorite foods?italian and thai
Ever been to Africa?no
Been toilet papering?no
Love someone so much it made you cry?yes
Been in a car accident?yes
Croutons or bacon bits?both
Favorite day of the week?thursday
Favorite resturant?that one in ny
Favorite flower?lily
Favorite sport to watch?football
Favorite drink?dr.pepper
Favorite ice cream flavor?vanilla
Warner Bros. or Disney?disney
Favorite fast food restuarant?taco bell
Carpet color in your bedroom?none
How many times did you fail your driver's test?none
Whom did you get your last email from?livejournal
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?books a million
What do you do most often when you are bored?go online
Most annoying thing to say to me?mock me
Favorite TV show?survivor and american idol
Last person you went out to dinner with?:kristi and josh
Been out of country?no
Believe in magick?no
Ford or Chevy?ford
What are you listening to right now?nothing
Have you ever failed a grade?no
If you have, what grade did you fail?n/a
Do you have a crush on someone?no
Do you have a bf/gf?yes
If so, what is their name?josh
How long have you been together?almost 3 months
What are you wearing right now?jeans and shirt
Would you have sex before marriage?no
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?yes
Are you a virgin?no
Do you smoke?no
Do you drink?no
Are you ghetto?no
Are you a player?no
What are your favorite colors?black and purple and hot pink
What is your favorite animal?black panther
Do you have any birthmarks?a mole like mark on my left knee
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?yes
Who do you talk to most on the phone?josh
Have you ever been slapped?yes
Do you get online a lot?yes
Are you shy or outgoing?both
Do you shower?yes
Do you hate school?yes
Do you have a social life?no
How easily do you trust people?not
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?idk
Would you ever sky dive?yes
Do you like to dance?no
Have you ever been out of state?yes
Do you like to travel?yes
Have you ever been expelled from school?no
Have you ever been suspended from school?no
Do you want to get out of your hometown?yes
Are you spoiled?no
Are you a brat?no
Have you ever been dumped?yes
Have you ever gotten high?yes
Do you like snapple?yes
Do you drink a lot of water?yes
What toothpaste do you use?colgate
Do you have a cell phone?no
Do you have a curfew?sometimes
Who do you look up to?nobody
Are you a role model?no
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?no
What name brand do you wear the most?um,..
What kind of jewelry do you wear?jelly braclets
What do you want pierced?lip
Do you like takin pictures?yes
Do you like gettin your picture taken?no
Do you have a tan?no
Do you get annoyed easily?yes
Have you ever started a rumor?yes
Do you have your own phone or phone line?no
Do you have your own pool?no
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?boxerbriefs
Do you have any siblings?yes
Have you ever been played?yes
Have you ever played anyone?no
Do you get along with your parents?occasionaly
How do you vent your anger?hitting stuff or yelling
Have you ever ran away?no
Have you ever been fired from a job?no
Do you even have a job?yes
Do you daydream a lot?yes
Do you have a lot of ex's?yes
Do you run your mouth?no
What do you want a tattoo of?not sure
What do you have a tattoo of?....
What does your ex bf/gf look like?ass
What does your most recent crush look like?um they know
Whats her/his name?they know
Have you ever been bitched out?no
Are you rude?yes
What was the last compliment you recieved?idk
Do you like getting dirty?yes
Are you flexiable?kinda
What is your heritage?irish german
What is your lucky number?dont have one
What does your hair look like right now?blah
Could you ever be a vegetarian?yes
Describe your looks?ass
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?purple
Would you ever date someone younger than you?haha i hope so
Would you ever date someone older than you?ye
When was the last time you were drunk?last summer
How many rings until you answer the phone?when i get it
Have you ever been skinny dipping?when i was little
If yes, when was the last time?um...
When was the last time you went on a date?idk
Do you look more like your mother or father?mother
Do you cry a lot?yes
Do you ever cry to get your way?no
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?yeah
Are you the romantic type?yes
Have you ever been chased by cops?no
What do you like most about your body?eyes
What do you like least about your body?everything
When did you have your first crush?5
When was the last time you threw up?january
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?brunettes
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?no
What about cleavage?no
Is your best friend a virgin?yes
Have you ever fucked someone up?no
Have you ever been fucked up?no
What theme does your room have?clutter
What size show do you wear?show?
What is your screen name on AIM?kinkkittenk
How are you feeling right now?tired
When was the last time you were at a party?um january
Have you ever given a lapdance?no
Have you ever recieved one?yes
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?yes
What is one of your bad qualilties?being rude
What is one of your good qualilties?um...im not always rude
Would you marry for money?no
What do you drive?nothing
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?mommy
When was the last time you cried in school?last week
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?no
What kind of music do you like?rock
Would you ever bungee jump?yes
What is your worst fear?ur mom
Would you ever join the army?no
Do you like cows?as in food yes
If you were to die today, what would you do?go to heaven
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?bye
Do you like to party?yes
Hearts or broken hearts?hearts
Moons or stars?stars
Coke or pepsi?coke
Favorite scent?vanilla
Favorite band?tastycakes
Would you ever dye your hair red?yes
How many languages can you speak?one
What time are you finishing this?11:47

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[04 May 2005|11:21pm]
stole from the tech god


First best friend: Amanda gillock
First car: bmw
First screenname: eeyorekrp
First self purchased CD: nsync
First pets: hampsters
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First musician you remember hearing in your house: AC/DC


Last cigarette: about 4 months
Last car ride: like 30 min ago
Last good cry: week or so
Last movie seen: idk remember
Last beverage drank: water
Last food consumed: chips
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: chucks
Last annoyance: a friend
Last shirt worn: spamalot
Last website visited: livejournal
Last word/s you said: ow
What color socks are you wearing? white
What color of underwear are you wearing: purple
What's under your bed? art stuff and trash
What time did you wake up today? 7 AM


Where do you want to go? Everwhere
What is your career going to be? dont really know yet
How many kids do you want? 2 i think
What kind of car(s)? meh idk


Current mood: bleh and fuckkkkkkk!
Current music: sarah evans
Current taste: pain
Current hair: same old same old
Current clothes: spamlot shirt,jeans
Current desktop picture: purple
Current hate: lines


(x) been drunk
(x) been high
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(_) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(_) been fired or laid off
(x) been in a fist fight
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(_) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(_) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(x) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(x) punched a friend
(_) been to Canada
(_) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
(X) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten sushi
(_) been snowboarding
(_) met someone in person from the internet
(x) been moshing at a concert
(_) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(x) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child
(_) gone to college
(_) graduated college
(x) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now


1. Nervous Habits? i hit my head on things when im aggrivated and i jump when im bervous
2. Are you double jointed? no
3. Can you roll your tongue? no
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yes
5. Can you blow a spit bubble? yeah
6. Can you cross your eyes? no
7. Tattoos? not yet
8. Piercings and where: ears
9. Do you make your bed daily? NO


10. Which shoe goes on first? right
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? yes.i throw tiffs shoes at ppl
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? 6
13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? my braclets and a necklace
14. Favorite piece of clothing? my chucks


15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? yes
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? all kinds
18. How many cereals in your cabinet? too many
19. What's your favorite beverage, VODKA,water
20. What's your favorite restaurant? i dont know
21. Do you cook? I can, but i"m not saying its good


22. How often do you brush your teeth? Once or twice a day
23. Hair drying method? towl
24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? yes...


25. Do you swear? yes
26. Do you ever spit? sometimes


27. Animal? black panther (i love that one)
28. Food? all kinds
29. Month? may
30. Day? thursday
31. Favorite Cartoon Character? goth kid from south park
32. Shoe Brand? chucks
33. Subject in school? drama
34. Color? black
35. Sport? football
36. TV show? idk


37. The CD player? rocky horror
38. Person you talk most on the phone with? noone
39. Ever taken a cab? proably
40. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? i hate mirrors
41. What color is your bedroom? offwhite
42. Do you use an alarm clock? no, someone has to get me up or i wont wake up
43. Window seat or aisle? window


44. What's your sleeping position? stomach
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[02 May 2005|11:02pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Some people talk of leaving Roanoke,but they never do.They all have their little dreams of never coming back and going to some big city and making it big.But guess what it will never happen.Most of you havent even grown up and you just want to leave to get away from it all.Yes that is a good reason but u need to be more smart about it.Like i dont know keep a job,or go to school.Hell you need money and you need a plan.You cant just leave you will run out of money or get your ass beat and the come running home back to this hell hole you left. Dont get me wrong I am all for leaving here,but you got to be smart about this.

Next topic:
Krista is a nice girl.She is a great actoress. I liked her from the start,I thought she was kickass.But she needs to know when to stop.Not every comment needs to be said.I understand a bad mood but damn dont start fuckin ranting on me.I was trying to be calm but damnit you dont know how hard that is.I doubt krista even reads this.but if she does then great.and if she doesnt please pass it on that im sorry i was being bitchy and i understand she was in a bad mood.But really damn try to just calm down a bit.fuck...

Next topic:
How can anyone just stop caring for someone.I dont see that.Just a magical wand floats by and you dont.That makes no sense.I dont even know anymore.fuck fuck...

I have so many lines and so little time.And you dont know all the shit im going through so dont fuckin make a comment like just learn your lines!

Bri fuckin talk to me! Its not awkard.Its ok,really. Im here and so is tiff.
I lurve you.Dont do anything stupid.

I'm done
I'm so fuckin stressed out you dont even know!

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[27 Apr 2005|11:45pm]

Tiffany under the cut is some possible pics for the thing under the comments..


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[27 Apr 2005|11:35pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

church was so much better

argh I have so much stuff due,and so much to do.Im going to freak out pretty soon.

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[24 Apr 2005|11:30pm]
Your Vampire Life (female) by EvilKirin
Your Username
How Many Years From Now You Will Be Turned...10
You Will Be Turned By...Your Aunt
Your Signature Power Will Be...Flight
Your Vampiric Lifemate Will Be...
You Will Lure Them Into It By...They Ask For It Willingly
How Many Years You Will Live For...1,037
You Will Finally Be Killed By...
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I hate my church...right now [20 Apr 2005|11:33pm]
Eveyone wants me to be like everyone else. They want be to be conservative and peppy,and blah.And apperantly thats the only way christians come.
Also you cant hold hands or sit beside someone,that means you are going to have sex.Oh and if you have ever had sex before that means if someone sits behind you and you talk,your going to do it,regarlass of current beliefs. I really hope it has nothing to do with skin color.

How are people so stupid,to think the friggin color of your skin has anything to do with who you are.

I am so pissed right now,I cant even explain.
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[19 Apr 2005|11:23pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I can't wait for my new journal layout,I think I will get a new lj journal as well.Since I dont talk to alot of the people on my friends list.

Friday night after the show,I met Josh's grandmother and aunt and all them.They were really nice.Then Josh was supposed to meet my dad,but my dad was to busy smoking a cig to care about me once again.so he drove up to get my mom,I walked josh to the car and opened my dad's side;"Dad,this is josh,oh and thanks for waiting to meet him,you care so much." then shut the door. Afterwards his grandma suggested I come over,so it was spiffy.Me,josh and his cousin Molly from Clevland walked around and his bf cory was driving around and saw us. Then we walked back and I talked to his gma some and that was it.

Sat night; instead of the wonderful cast party at IHOP.Me,josh,cory,and molly went to cory's dorm room and watched Exorcist the beg.(which is really boring)then I got home around 2 am.

The play has been really fun.I kinda miss the rehersals. But I dont miss seeing courtney.And I dont miss all the highschool drama.I really dont miss the two faced people either.

Lunch is so not fun anymore.

Bri won't talk to anyone anymore.And really it seems odd.But I dont want to go into it anymore.

Wow,I need to write in this more.or not....no ne needs to read this shit.

g day

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[19 Apr 2005|11:15pm]
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